I had it all planned for the entire year: jobs, events, dances, concerts, explorations and moving house. Everything changed on sunday march 8th here. The outbreak got me right when i was ready to move into my new hood and welcome a new exciting cycle of my Life.
Italy, Rome countryside. Day 45 of Lockdown: I’m still in the same house with my 2 friends (a couple) and their 10 months old baby.
Last wednesday the house was in full Staccato mode: laundry machines, mixers, hair dryers, dryer machine, water boiler, gardening, spring cleaning, baby crying, postman ringing, all sort of stuff all over the lounge floor that everytime i walked i looked like almost flying to avoid waking the sleeping dragon guarding the golden ring. Family cooking sessions are like a Cirque du Soleil extravaganza shows here, the only difference is they run in a 2 square meters kitchen space. A noise bombardment
And on top of all of this, my screen time increased enormously as i quickly adapted to connect with the World where Zoom meetings and phone communication suddenly took the place of all interpersonal contact and connections. I felt frustration in every cell as my body became electrically charged, totally overstimulated.
OK Emiliano. You are not stopping while you have given a precious opportunity to stop.
That night I needed to discharge, to shut everything off. I settled myself outside my tiny balcony, tucked into my sleeping bag to watch the night sky.
Ah…the longing for the night sky….My nervous system is still thanking me.
So i simply looked up and stared….and stared…..and questions started to proliferate.
I invite you to use these prompts during your next pause looking up.
What can you do in this situation to enhance yourself?
How can you still support your community?
How can you be within yourself despite what is happening all over the world?
How can you find expansion during contraction times?
We find ourselves on crucial intersection as Humans Beings. We simply know it.
The stars kept speaking and the questions started to broaden….
How do you want your Life to be from here on?
How do you wish to bring and share your gifts with the world outside?
Joyful or miserable? What’s your choice?
Despite Adversity how can you still have a fulfilling experience?
What is that really matters to you?
Did you ask yourself that maybe is this Adversity that offers you to break your cycles, your limitations?
To operate successfully in the outside world you need a lot of cooperating factors but internally? What is limiting you? Are you even limited?
And then…..still looking up at the stars in this crystal clear sky….
What do you know Emiliano? What are the possibilities?
Right now we are sitting on top of a spinning ball mashup made of Soil, Fire, Water and Air traveling through a pitch black Void where you can’t figure out where is up or down because you will be inevitably wrong….All kept together by a Mysterious Force. The 5th ingredient. Nobody knows. Nothing i know. And because of that: Possibilities? Endless. Wow. Isn’t just that a living miracle?
The earlier we come to terms that we can’t understand a damn thing in this Universe the better. And here lies the beauty.
Look up more often. It’s always available.
Question and Doubt can bring to Confusion yes, but nurture Possibilities.
Be confused. Keep asking questions that are vital to your existence. Seeking fuels our passions. Conclusions kill all possibilities. We are finished.
In seeking instead we become naturally humble.
Conclusion nurtures stagnation. Questions are Life.
As movement is. And can turn Adversity into Opportunity.
PS: As I gazed into the nighttime sky this is what i listened to.